Don't know where to start really, but head in a big mess. I'm a regular poster on Mumsnet but have changed my name as I'm embarrased about this and need your support.
DH came home on Friday having been away on business. He was on the internet during the evening. I was outside tidying up and saw thru the window that he was looking at porn pictures - at 7.45 in the evening - with ds2 asleep in the lounge......
Anyway, I told him what I'd seen and he apologised. It wouldn't be so much of an issue except that since ds2 was born, nearly a year ago, intimacy has been non-existant. I'm not proud of that but I don't know what to do to get it back. I'm now completely messed up, brought to a head with what I saw. I'm not kidding myself that it's a one off incident, I know that he's a regular user of porn. I'm not a prude, it doesn't normally bother me, but when there is nothing happening between us.....then that's different.
I'm feeling low, feeling crap, house is a tip (as usual), two little ones under 3, I just don't know which way is up anymore. We agreed to talk at the weekend and this just didn't happen and now I feel that its been forgotten.....only it hasn't. I just don't have the energy to make waves.....guess I'll live with it.
Sorry, rant over. It looks a bit trivial written down.