Want to go to bed and just not wake up

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One of those days where I just dont want to be here anymore I wouldnt do anything but only because of the pain I would leave my family but I would just like to slip away in my asleep.

Finally plucked up the courage 5 weeks ago after 12 years battling depression and prescribed venlaflaxine currently on 150mg and it's not doing anything I just fuck everything up cant deal with anything everything is too much I cant go anywhere because I panic and I want to put my brain into a jar just to have 5 minutes peace from my head.

Life will get better wont it? I hate feeling this I'm missing out on so much and I know I am but cannot shake sense into myself .

Is venlafaxine your first med?

That's quite an unusual one to start with.

It's very addictive.

If I were you I would go back and ask to be put on sertraline or citalopram.

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. How long have you been on medication? I have also battled depression before. Life did get better. It might seem like this will never get better... but I promise it will. It helps to talk about how you feel

Your doctor would want you to go back and speak to them about how you're feeling.
Your medication might need adjusting or you may need a little extra support.

Yes, things will get better. I'm pleased that you know you are loved.
Take care.

Thank you for taking the time to reply, your kind words mean alot x

I have just come home from a doctors appointment I just couldn't keep going the way I was, she had taken me off the venlaflaxine said if it was going to work it would have by now and has prescribed quetiapine and mirtazapine and an appointment to see her in one week.

Again thank you for replying to me last night I really wasnt in a nice place and although my husband is wonderful I feel I cant tell him just how awful life is sometimes :( so I appreciated the chat x

That's good that you went to see the Doctor and they are changing your medication. Hopefully this one will suit you better. Take it easy