Living on borrowed time

[anxioussue]

..and that borrowed time has finally run out after I've been living on it for years.
The question is what do I do now all my options have run out ? There is no more borrowed time.

OP, please open up to us. Please tell us what’s going on so we can really offer support, help & advice. I was at breaking point not long ago and the help I received on here really saved me. Let us help you too.

Keep breathing. Don't think of anything except the breath in, breath out. It will stop, or continue. Things will improve or they won't. Feel secure in the breath entering and leaving your body, 'this moment now' and nothing else.

@anxioussue glad you’re ok :)

The abusive person who tried to fill your head with nonsense about you living on borrowed time saw a strength and resilience in you that made them feel threatened.
Keep hanging in there

You are not alone, vent here and we will all listen. The person that used the expression about being on 'borrowed time' was trying to hurt you.
Essentially we are all on borrowed time and all go through plenty of up/downs-tomorrow will come.
I do understand i am going through a tough year and believe or not I had your mindset not too long ago. I created a thread and followed the advice given. I am not saying everything is resolved but little by little things will turn.
Someone on here once said 'suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem'. I have to say that sentiment, is one that i use daily to motivate myself.
Treat yourself, take a break away or even just watch a favourite-just anything to give yourself a break from thinking about yours problems.

OP come back and let us know how you are doing

I see you said you need somebody now, so would you be comfortable calling samaritans? Whatever you're feeling just get it off your chest to somebody. Or You can talk on here. I regularly have these feelings, have struggled for many years Its really important you reach out to people, a support network, or health professionals. I'm not sure what area you live in, but here in Essex we have a crisis team that you can call and they can get you immediate help if necessary, is there anything similar where you are? Please don't deal with anything on your own, you're very strong for reaching out on here in the first place. You'll find the right support here if you want it, many people I'm sure can easily relate and will want to help best they can x

Hi OP, do you have a physical health issue or is it your MH you're struggling with at the minute? Sorry to hear you're having a hard time

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.
We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.
We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly.

How are you feeling today? Sometimes we have to take life one day at a time. I find on particularly difficult days that distraction works well. Set small goals and try to get out, because the longer you leave it, the harder it gets.

There are the Samaritans and there's another helpline of a similar nature, but I can't remember what it's called. Are there any community groups where you are? Some parks have a 'friends of' group. Some churches / other religious groups have coffee mornings.

Hello again OP. Just to say that you don't have to be actively considering suicide to give the Samaritans a call. From what you have said so far, they would welcome a call or email from you - you don't need to feel alone in what you are going through. They will listen and in confidence.