IIt's something I've struggled with since a teenager but I've never dealt with. My mother took me to the GPs at 15 and got me antidepressants...nothing was explained to me and it was thrown on me really and it caused a big stigma for me about the whole thing...I took one of the pills and flushed the others. It was never spoken of again.
I've always had extreme mood swings and terrible PMT years ago. I went to the doctors about how I was pretty much suicidal during PMT and I was just put on the pill.
The closest after this I came to going to the GP re: my mental health was 4 years ago during a break up. I was suicidal and needed help...I managed to bring myself up before that (after 3 months of suicidal thoughts and extreme lows) and had the best year of my life.
Now here we are and this year has felt like a slippery slope into doom for me. I can't even pinpoint why. I'm surrounded by loved ones, have a healthy relationship, stable job, I graduated and have lots to be proud of. I feel in utter dispair and am just about managing to hold it together at work. I feel like crying constantly. I want to stay in bed 24/7. I'm sure seasonal depression has something to do with it but I certainly felt it's grip on me earlier in the year anyway.
I've made an appointment but I'm really nervous. I don't want to cry. How much is a GP going to need to hear? I'm not great at doctors appointments at the best of times.