Can't go on like this

[headsaway123]

Every day feels like this dark consuming cloud hanging over me is getting worse. I have a 4 week old and a 16 month old and they're the only reason I'm getting through my days, every morning I wake up and cry because I have to do another day and I don't know how much longer I can go on. My DH isn't understanding at all he just told me to see a doctor because I'm making him unhappy. But I don't want to see a doctor because all he is going to do is give me tablets and what if my husband and I break up I don't want to give him anything to use against me

I’m so sorry you feel so sad. You have a lot on your plate with 2 babies to care for. You need some help. Do you have family that you can talk to?

Sorry your husband isn't more empathetic, but he's right, you need to see a doctor.

It would be a good idea to let your doctor know you’re having a rough time. That doesn’t mean you’d have to take medication.
Do you get any sleep? Do you have a friend/sister/mother who could help with the toddler or house?

See a doctor is actually sensible advice. You probably should give it a try. It can't be "used against you"

You do need to seek proper medical help. And seeking help won’t be used against you. It’s the healthy thing to do to seek help.