I have had depression for 10 years. Ups and downs. Never had medication but have had cbt which was amazing. Been through lots, like all of you. Things finally settling so we agree to a day out together as it’s been years! Just one day out for lunch and time together without the kids. We miss the bus by seconds. Buses every 3 hours, so too late. I’m home and have literally sobbed and sobbed. This can’t be right? All the low feelings come rushing back in, feel worthless, can’t even catch a bus, children be better off without me etc etc. Does anyone else ever get like this and why? Seriously think I’m beginning to lose it again over missing a bus.