Suspected ADHD-struggling

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I'm being assessed for ADHD, have my first CMHT appt at the end of November. I really feel like I have it & am just struggling with:
-the mess in my house& the endless work it generates. 'Always cleaning, never clean' seems like my life. It stresses me out.
-the constant self criticism whirring round my mind.
-my to do list/life admin constantly on my mind but never done.
-the emotional side. I'm irritable, my mood changes thru the day & im so sensitive to criticism. So I haven't told anyone I'm being assessed or that I think I have this.

I just feel like I am only just getting by & am exhausted by doing the bare minimum. I worry constantly about the impact on my kids & I just hate myself.
Will things ever get any better?

I have adhd and my life can be very like that. It is much better since I have started medication though, and I have also learned to be less hard on myself so that I have less inclination to feel like a failure because I find some things difficult. If you get a diagnosis and a treatment plan I think you will start to find it easier. Synpathy from me. I know how hard it can be

@Pushmepullyou thanks. Think it's a difficult week. I feel a bit low & just wanna sleep/zone out to crap telly. But it's half term & Halloween so feel like I should be doing stuff. Dreading trick or treating later-small talk is my idea of hell right now!
Thanks for saying medication helps. Did u find it helps with emotional side?
I hate myself for getting so wound up about stuff like housework-5 years ago I wasn't that person.

I’m not sure the medication helps with the emotional side directly, but it makes it easier for me to stay on top of things and therefore I feel a lot less overwhelmed and depressed.

@Pushmepullyou what medication are you on? Have you found that there have been any side effects?

@Pushmepullyou I get you. I'm guessing I'm about 6 months from diagnosis/medication so just have to find ways of coping I suppose.