Just broken broken broken and I don't know what to do

[jamoncrumpets]

A year ago, maybe more, I saw a psychiatrist because I was suffering with post natal depression. They prescribed me new medication (mirtazapine) to add to the existing dose of venlafaxine I was taking every day.

A year on and I'm really struggling. I have PTSD from losing my mother to cancer. This time of year is rife with triggers. I am also a mother myself now, which in itself is hugely triggering.

I have stomach issues, pain, churning and diarrhoea. I am convinced I am going to die. The GP has given me meds for stomach acid and referred me for tests, but keeps telling me that I need to get my anxiety under control.

I just don't know how to do that. I'm taking the meds. I'm staying in touch with my GP. I'm trying so hard. Nothing is working.

Today I called the mental health crisis team in my area because I spent the entire morning crying and panicking. Am waiting on callback.

But what's my next option here? I'm doing everything I can and I am still in pain and panicking constantly.

Your GP is failing you! You aren't able to get your anxiety under control! You are already on two antidepressants.
Refer yourself to mental health services. The crisis team will help you to do this. You may need a change of meds and other therapies. I know it's difficult but you have to demand help because in my experience everything takes too long if you don't.

Thanks @Limensoda - that's exactly what I've done. Should be called and triaged in the next 72 hours. They tried to shunt me back to the GP and I started crying and saying 'I can't go on like this'

@08jamoncrumpets Well done! You need someone to go over it all with you and come up with a care plan. Good luck....at least you know now that something may be done

Sorry to hear you are feeling like this. That is unhelpful to tell you that you need to get your anxiety under control...if it was as simple as that none of us would need medication or therapy.
While you are waiting for support are there ways that you can support yourself at home? What do you normally do to try and look after yourself or take care of yourself? If you don't have anything specific, maybe now is the time to look into what you might need. It can be really small things like watching comedy, or reading a book that you find funny, taking a walk, having a coffee with a friend. You've done the big steps to reaching out, now take some time to look in and see how you can care for yourself too.