I think i have borderline personality disorder, does anybody else?

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Does anybody here have a diagnosis?

I'm not usually an armchair psychologist but it fits me to a tee

I would appreciate if anybody who has this can tell me whether my account sounds familiar and relatable

I history of unstable relationships, during which I can cycle from idealisation to devaluation very quickly.

I'm terrified of abandonment but will often sabotage relationships and leave before I'm left. I've cheated in every relationship I've been in but react with heartbreak if it is done to me.

I get disproportionately angry for the smallest of things.

I have very little patience for anything that doesn't run smoothly and get very overwhelmed very quickly. I can't handle pressure.

I can cycle through extreme moods in a short period of time, crying and angry one hour then feeling positive and relaxed shortly after.

I have a history of self destructive behaviour, such as drug use (not anymore), promiscuity and breaking the law when I was in my teens.

Does any of this ring a bell for those of you with the condition? I'm not sure whether a diagnosis would be beneficial to me or just cause me problems, having that on my medical record because I know there is a stigma, which isn't nice

"Female psychopath" is something I've heard BPD sufferers referred to and think it's an awful label to have, I realise sensible people wouldn't use those words but there is definitely a negative stigma around the disorder isn't there.

OP that sounds hard and I urge you to speak to a Doctor about this. Personally I think getting the correct diagnosis is important because it us thrn that you will hopefully get the correct therapy /treatment. For example DBT and MBT can help people with Bpd. Unfortunately there is some stigma in regards to mental health conditions. Bpd is nothing like psychopathy though. I work in mental health and have never heard of females with Bpd being called female psychopaths. It is up to you if you want to try to get a diagnosis. However if you do have Bpd then there are things that can help and you deserve to have help.