Help, I seem to have turned into a baby.
I have autism (only diagnosed last year, very subtle presentation but huge devastating impact on my life) and associated MH issues.
Feel like I've just reached the end. No hope left for future. No partner no hope of children no career just pain and more pain. Run out of hope.
Seem to have spent about 36 hours now skirting on the edge of meltdown or actually in meltdown. Been lower and lower for weeks. Only thing that's stopping all the scary popping sad terror emotions is being held and cuddled. Dear friend / ex is looking after me (we're extremely close and split not long ago for reasons other than incompatibility. Too complicated to go into now). Obviously this is unsustainable.
I don't even know what's going on with me, just wondering if anyone has any insight.
I'm basically done on this planet but I can't leave him it would break him right now.
So I'm trying to find an alternative.