OK, so I've made that appointment to see the Doctor

[TraceyP]

And now all I need is to psyche myself up and tell him that I have OCD as well as the depression. I'm panicking just thinking about it but I've at least made a start. I know I'm doing the right thing but as I said on yesterday's thread this is going to be really hard. Keep your fingers and toes crossed for me girls, I'm going to struggle with this.

Thank you all. I'm starting to panic now, I'm shaking and my heart is pounding but I promise you I'm going to do it. Just going to pick dd up from nursery, the fresh air will clear my head but I'll speak to you later.

Best of luck TraceyP, you are being very brave. Keep us posted.

Good luck Tracey, will be thinking of you.

Well, I did it! I really surprised myself at how together I managed to keep myself. My GP agrees that the dose of ads I'm on isn't working and has upped it, and was very sympathetic about the OCD. He feels that he would be out of his depth treating the OCD so, although he will continue to treat my depression, he is going to refer me to our local Mental Health unit who he thinks are better able to offer treatment options for the OCD.

A big thank you from me to the kind, wise people who have helped me find the strength to do this. My love to you all.

Well done TraceyP!!

Are you pleased with the result?

Thanks, Fizog. I think it's probably as good a result as I could have hoped for. I certainly do feel more positive for having done something about it. It's a little frustrating that I've now got to wait for a referral but as my GP feels I will get better results from the Mental Health unit then I probably will. I don't think he was fobbing me off, he was very sympathetic and understanding and I think that this is probably the best course of action. I was hoping not to have to up the dose of the ads but again, if it's necessary then I have to at least try it and see if a higher dose works. Hopefully it won't mean all the side effects kick back in again!

Well done TraceyP!!!!!!!!! Keep us up to date with your progress, won't you? And if it gets tough, your MN friends will help and support you. xx

Just wanted to say, well done for going to GP. I know how hard it is. I finally plucked up courage to go re PND and it was honestly one of the hardest (but best) things I've done in my life. I'm so glad that you're getting the help you deserve - your GP sounds on the ball re referring you. Well done you! I'm so chuffed for you.

Well done TraceyP, am so pleased you went through with it, I know it must have been hard. Shows how strong you can be. You will get the right support at the unit. You should be VERY proud of yourself. X

Great news TraceyP! Glad that your GP treated you with respect and intelligence - rather than fumbling along, wanted to make sure you saw people who knew what they were doing!

TraceyP have been following your thread, but have had no useful advice to give. Just wanted to say well done for going to the GP, and glad to hear he took you seriously. All it takes is one step to get you on the right path.

glad you're getting sorted traceyp, youve offered me some good advice on here even though ive not been around long, so i hope the increase helps and appointment helps get you sorted.x

Thanks all.

So, so, so, pleased Traceyp - Well done you for your bravery.

I don't feel brave, MIAM, just incredibly stupid for putting up with things for so long. I still haven't told dh, he is going to be so hurt and I don't know where to begin.

Not stupid Tracey hugs just normal. i have read that from first symptoms of OCD it takes something staggering like an average of 10 years from first symptoms to seek treatment; the common scenario is that you just learn to live with it, and it is only when you get depressed and are finding it difficult to live with it that you seek help. As for your husband - I think if you possibly slide over the - I have thought for ages I have had OCD but not told you side of things, but put it more as - talking to the GP yesterday, he felt that some of my thinking etc was more linked to an anxiety disorder rather than depression, so is referring me on for treatment ?

You are far too wise for your years, MTS! And what a stunningly simple solution. Many thanks x

thanks Tracey P and thanks very much for the Miriam Stopppard book which arrived this morning!

Wow - an efficient postal service!! Wonders will never cease. Was it the one you were after?

Yeah TraceyP, so pleased you have asked for help. There is no shame in having to increase your dosage of ads - it just depends on what suits your body. Go girl!