Just about had enough of everything in life. I really don't think things have ever been so bad so where do I start. 2016 we moved house, a happy new start with partner of 25y and 2 ds (now 7&4) get fit,active pregnant again!
Since 2016 I've suffered 3 miscarriages. 2 of which needed surgery. (2016/2017 & 2018) Partner lost his job 2 months after moving in 2016 so eventually realisation that baby 3 not possible, due to financial problems and heartache we stopped trying. Then I lost my beloved dog and my favourite bands lead singer killed him self. Things were low but I plodded on. Found out partner talking to women on what's app so no trust there anymore, no love life and my boys just argue. all there seems to be is shouting. I don't like my job which I've had to increase my hours from 15 to 27 per week. House is a mess no one helps. I don't like it here. We had plans for it but now have no money.
I'm at least £30k in dept. Yes, since 2016. My only joy is shopping and eating. I don't have any women friends. My best mate has no kids and doesn't like children. Only has negative things to say so slowly we drifted apart. My 2 boys started new schools in Sep but no mums at pick up make any effort to talk but I wouldn't make good company anyway. I try to think positive, but at the moment I just want to be with my beloved dog. He was my best friend and I miss him. My new start went horribly wrong and I'm stuck in a big hole. People keep chucking in dirt and I'm sinking. Anyone else having a shit time?