Scaring myself

[DustMyselfOff]

Dh left me 3 weeks ago. EA with a woman at work. I don't want to talk about him any more.
I have never felt so low. So lost and worthless. Last week I was doing ok. He moved out, which actually helped oddly, and i got a job. But the weekend was hell and so is today and I'm having intrusive thoughts and thoughts about not being here any more and I'm scaring myself. I'm just so tired. I've been having to be strong for so long. Years of his MH struggles i held him up and i feel all used up. I have no strength., no patience, no resilience left for me or for my children.
I went to the GP. She's given me sleeping pills.

Hi - please ask your GP to refer/signpost you to someone you can talk to and start that conversation with your GP. Sleeping pills are fine but not nearly enough.

What a hell of a time you're going through. I am so sorry. Know that you deserve the best - you matter so, so much and so do your dear children. I know what you mean when you say that you're scaring yourself. Please find channels (friends, family - certainly professioal) to talk through your feelings and what you're going through.

The resilience that you had to bring your kids into the world and to raise them and to be everything that you've ever been will return. But get support to help you get it back - you deserve it.

Thank you for replying. I've seen my go. I've reached out to family