I’ve name changed for this. Despite people saying there is no shame in mental illness etc there is still such a stigma about it all.
I’m wondering if I may have depression and if it’s worth a visit to my GP. I feel I could have been suffering for a long time now.
I have periods of feeling “flat”, not happy or sad, no excitement, no joy. Just like I’m in a bubble where nothing affects me.
I also have periods where I just can’t be bothered. Can’t be bothered to keep up with the housework, cooking healthy meals and rely on convenience food etc.
I also have down periods where I feel emotional all the time. It either bubbles beneath the surface and I cope or I cry at the slightest thing or feel like crying for no apparent reason.
Then I have the rage periods. I can go from “normal” to raging angry and shouty. Sometimes for no reason. Others for the slightest thing.
Generally though I’ve just lost interest in things that used to be my “things”. I can’t read anymore or watch tv. All I can focus on a lot of the time is scrolling through FB or mumsnet. I’ve got zero sex drive anymore, I’ve put on lots of weight and I generally don’t give two shits about my appearance whereas I used to love clothes, shoes, my hair and makeup being done. I feel like I’m throwing my life away doing nothing. I keep thinking about going back to do my 2nd degree at uni, then back out at last minute as I keep thinking they either won’t even interview me or I’ll be rubbish at it and fail.
Does this sound like depression? Should I go to my GP?
Thanks