Hi
I’ve had a really crap year and had counselling but my head is still spinning. I was in a school role for 13 years and I left earlier this year for a new job that I thought was my dream career (I had studied hard to get qualified for this career). It didn’t work out as was full time (I’ve only worked part time as my son had autism). I left as I developed deep depression and couldn’t function. I spent 3 months getting better.
I thought I should go back to school, so my employer let me back with open arms. I was pleased. I did a week and then at the weekend I just cried and collapsed, bed ridden again for weeks with depression. My child had significant autism and now I think I just need to be with him. I called the school and told them my son is unwell and me too. I then sent in my resignation with a sick note to cover it. I felt awful but I couldn’t function. I never got a reply and I sent the email to all relevant people. I did many good years work there and in hindsight I never should have returned. I don’t know why I collapsed and now I am beating myself up that I ruined years of good work and my employer is so angry. I don’t want to have depression, I’ve lost a good well paid job but I can’t seem to do it and my counsellor said I should never have gone back. I feel so embarrassed about it all.