Please tell me it gets better and I won’t always feel like this

[DaiJai1066]

I’m struggling to cope with the loss of my pregnancy due to an ectopic. It’s been two months and every day I’m angry, crying and so sad. I can’t concentrate at work, can’t recall any conversations I have but count every child, baby and pregnant women that I see. Someone close to my partner has announced there pregnancy and I’m so jealous and bitter. All my friends are new mums and I just moved to the area where my partner is from so I only know him. I also lost my mum 2 years ago so all my friends have babies and Mums. I have seen my gp who refused to do a hormone test so I’m not even sure if I’m depressed or if this is hormones.
All I want to do is stay home. The idea of having to feel like this every day is awful. I used to be really happy and loved life. My sil is the only female nearby and I’m constantly comparing myself to her. My partner told me she got pregnant 2 months after her ectopic and it’s been 2 months for me. I am doing everything right, I changed my diet, I tracked my ovulation, I paid for private fertility scans, I take the vitamins etc. I’m sorry this is long but I just really want someone to tell me this is normal or when it will end. Thank you for reading.

It's only been 2 months you're still grieving. I had a late MC 8 years ago and still have days when something will pull the rug from under me. Be kind to yourself.

I agree, you need to be exceptionally kind to yourself at the moment and give yourself time. I wouldn't worry too much on whether this is depression or hormones, whatever is going on you are still in the midst of it and you sound like you need to retreat slightly from your 'normal' life and give yourself time to recover. Allow yourself this. You won't always feel like this but you do need to give yourself time to come through it.