i feel like such a drama queen for posting this, but don't really have anyone i can talk to other than my mum who is on the other side of the world and it will just upset her to hear that i'm upset.... my DH lost his job about 4 months ago which meant that i had to find a job quickly.
i'd already had 8 months off maternity with my DD but in that time we'd moved city, i'd resigned my old job, and bought a house that needed loads of work doing to it. luckily, my old job said i could come back on whatever terms i wanted, which is unbelievably lucky, so i did 3 days a week to begin with whilst my DH looked after baby. he then found work and DD started nursery in july fulltime. so i have changed my hours to 10-3 each day so i can take her and pick her up. i travel 4 hours a day to my job, and when i pick her up, she's so tired that i only get an hour with her as she falls asleep by 6pm. we've not got any family nearby and not many friends as we've just moved here. i'm just exhausted and emotional all the time, i'm looking for a job in the city where i live(!) but its taking ages. DH is now working a 4 hour round trip commute away as well so we've both got it tough. i'm just so fed up with it all - have no energy to do anything and miss my DD so much. feel like such a wimp as lots of people have it tougher than we do.. andi don't know why i'm posting this.