I am undergoing online text based therapy. Prior to my last session I had a rare argument with my partner (lasted around 30 seconds, 2nd heated argument in our 7 year relationship). I took myself to a different room from my partner and children and banged my head against the wall as this has previously helped me dissipate my anger quicker (1st time doing this throughout the entire duration of our relationship, I'm aware it's not the healthiest method hence me being in therapy). I also had thoughts of jumping from the balcony but would never have gone through with it, one of my issues are intrusive thoughts that I have no desire to act upon.
I shared all of the above with my therapist and she has referred me, against my wishes, to the child safeguarding team. The anger from my argument passed quickly but my depression and anxiety have increased 10 fold as a result of her referral. I have explained to her my suicidal thoughts are not something I have a desire to act upon and that in all of my mental health problems I always ensure my children are kept far far away from being affected.
Not only do I no longer trust that she is the right person to help me through my struggles, I do not feel comfortable enough sharing my darkest thoughts with any therapist meaning my chances of getting better through therapy are now drastically reduced. I feel really dissolusioned with the system as all it has done is made me feel worse.
I'm not entirely sure the point of me writing this out.. Does her referal sound justified? Why is there and automatic assumption that a parent with depression is a danger to their children? My kids are one of the few things in my life that bring me joy and I would never do anything to hurt them.