Have to cope today

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Feeling v depressed today but have to work and try to keep up my energy. No one in real life to talk about but I can't stop crying. :(

I have asked for help with GP but they are too busy to give appointment :(

I’ve been there. It’s hard. Do you have any annual leave you can take? Or does your Gp do e-consults? I think a lot do now, but it Isn’t publicised much. If you google the surgery,there might be an option to ask the Gp for advice or similar. Click that and then ask for specific advice. It’s a long form but you can request a sick note, antidepressant etc and you get a response within 2 days (you may need to call them for the outcome)

Thanks so much for reply. I ended up binge eating doughnuts and coffee and came to work :(. Will try GP on phone at lunch. I am not great but wanted to go out of my door. Sadly I feel I can keep carrying on and it will be fine one day and I know it won't. I have had issues since I lost mom and then I relocated to another side of the world. Every change has been overwhelming and I have spoken to GP who always dismiss me after a few sympathetic statements. Maybe I am good at covering up? Thanks v much for even replying to me

You’re doing well. Don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re allowed a break when you need one (from work or housework/ people/ whatever). I tend to keep going like you, and sometimes it works, but on 2 notable occasions I kept going way too long and by the time I took a break I’d failed uni/ lost a career. Do what works for you. And well done for getting up and getting out the house

Thank you @Howmanysleepsnow, I am home have a headache but feel better. I can't keep my weight in control due to such episodes. But I think I need to fix the root issue of my feelings. I have thrown a career too but was lucky I was able to get another. But I know what you mean, would have been in a better place financially had I not.

I left a note to reception about how I am feeling and if I could been seen soon. Waiting for a call back. Feel like GPs are really pressed for time. :(

Do you know the root issue?

I think I didn't come to terms with losing my mom and headed into working in a busy job with long commute. I concealed how I felt and carried on. I moved countries and have no friends :(

We have a 24 hour telephone service called the Samaritans- would you feel like talking to them? It might see you through this tough time until you can see a GP and possibly start medication.

It does sound like you haven’t had time to grieve. Are you in contact with friends from your birth country still? Do you have anyone to talk to (friends or family) that remember your mum?

@Lightsabre thanks for the message, Would it be on phone? At the moment struggling with idea of speaking to someone new.
@Howmanysleepsnow yes I do have a lovely friend who I call often guess over summer hols I haven't spoken as much. She knew my mom remembers how I remember her. I am considering going in December I might try to spend sometime with her. It's a strange thing as so many things have changed back there too and I miss how everything was in a way. But change is bound to happen. I do want to go back for good but work and finance don't allow that for now. Thanks again for your kind words.

Sorry to hear you are going through this. Would reaching out to some kind of bereavement group help in your area?

Thank you, have only asked GP. Now sure how to get access to bereavement support. I also think I need a friend to talk to and I don't have anyone here. I have been pushing myself to keep busy and going day after day. But I struggled to sleep last night.

I am not sure where you are but sometimes there are local facebook bereavement groups and through these you might have face to face meetings/support. Or bereavement charities that provide support.