Not sure if I'm wasting the doctors time

[Shittiestdayinalongtime]

Like the title says really. I don't know if this is depression or if it's just normal for what's going on in my life, although I've been feeling like this for s while now.
Crying
Feeling tired
Lack of energy
No motivation
Easily distracted
Feel like I have so many things going on in my head that I dont know what to concentrate on
Feel foggy
Not concentrating on every day things
Completely forgot my name, forgot what to write
Takes a long time to fall asleep, feels like I cant switch off

Suicidal thoughts are more regular
Been a bad year

This is what I wrote down yesterday, I find it hard to open up unless I'm having a really bad, emotional day , and yesterday was really bad. Crying for most of it, I have no idea why. So I was thinking of making an appointment with what I wrote down? This is written awfully but I can't push myself to make it better

You are definitely not wasting the doctors time. If you find it hard to open up, take that list and show them written down. They will help you. Things can get better

I've been where you are. It's not normal and I promise you won't be wasting anyone's time by asking for help. Please take care of yourself xx

And don't forget the samaritans are always there if you need someone to talk to in a crisis. I've used them and they have been brilliant.

No you aren't wasting their time at all. Can you econsult your GP. Look at practice website? Send that over

The reason I suggest you look at econsult is I found it much easier to put how I was feeling on paper and then have the GP call me as I have a tendency to minimise issues on the phone so by laying it all out first there was no hiding from it.

Thank you. I did have a look on their website and I don't think that they do. I know I need to go, I'm just not good at opening up. I'll try and get an appointment . It's much easier to talk when you don't have to sit and face the person.

Thank you for everyone who replied. I managed to get a doctors appointment and I actually opened up enough and in the process, burst into tears. He's ordered some blood tests and wants me back on Monday to talk about the results, and to talk about counselling and possibly medication. So thank you x

Well done for getting appointment and bring honest about how you are feeling. Hope this is the start of improvements for you.

Well done OP, you've done amazingly. Be good to yourself. I hope things look up soon xx

That's amazing op. You've done the hardest bit, believe it or not. You've taken the first step to getting help.