What's wrong with me?

[Justsmileandcarryon]

So I'm really struggling at the moment and I dont know where to turn to. I have struggled with depression, self harm and pnd through my life. I stopped anti depressants a while ago now.. coming up 2 years. Over the last few months, I think I might be struggling again. I get so annoyed all of the time. I shout a lot and I dont mean to but I just get so fed up. I just feel myself getting so frustrated. I cry loads. I sat in front of my 6 year old tonight and sobbed. I do that a lot. And I feel so guilty. I feel so worried. I am stressed. Been offered a new job and I dont know what to do.. take it or stay where I am. Pros and cons for both. Very worried about it all. I havent slept properly for ages. What's wrong with me? I'm so fed up of feeling like this.

It sounds like you have an awful lot on your plate. Could you speak to your GP about trying your tablets again? The best advice I was given when I had my roughest patch was not to make any decisions or purchases that would affect me beyond two weeks.

Thank you for your reply. I wondered about tablets again but I dont know if it depression again? I just dont know. I get so angry (would not hurt anyone angry but just angry as in shouting etc) so quickly.

It sounds like you have a lot going on and could do with some time to relax. Do your friends / family know how you feel?

I've suffered with depression for a long time too.
Medication isn't always the answer, but if you feel like it could help to make things easier then speak to your dr.

I hope you start feeling better soon

Thank you. No I havent told anyone how I feel. I'm so ashamed of myself so I dont want anyone to know how I really feel x

I'd definitely recommend speaking to a dr in that case. If you ever feel like you need someone to vent to, feel free to send me a message. Things will get better.

You are very stressed and feel angry. Can you pinpoint what is making you feel this way?
Do you get any time to spend on yourself?
Do you feel trapped or unsupported?
Are you able to ask for help?
We can't always see why we get stressed or angry and it builds up. Medication can help but we also need to identify what we can do about the cause and make changes in our lives.
Speak to your doctor but ask about therapies, cbt, counselling, etc.

I can never pinpoint why, it just comes over me. It's horrible. I really dont want to be a shouty mum and I try so hard to keep calm but I cant. I worry about everything. Literally everything. I cant sleep properly because I get so worked up x

@39Justsmileandcarryon

CBT may help. I had cbt for worrying. I went to a worry workshop. I'm also having one to one counselling which has helped me see why I get anxiety and how my thoughts trigger it.
Do see your doctor.

Thank you. What is cbt? Is it not counselling? I thought it was the same thing

Cognitive behaviour therapy. You can read about it online.