Anxiety help

[Twoofmum2]

Hi

I'm not very good at talking about feelings but I could do with other people's opinions and experiences.

I have pretty much had anxiety for most of my life due to my up bringing, however only in the last year have I realised it's anxiety and "not just the way I am".

I went to the dr at the beginning of the year about how I was feeling as I started to feel down, I have had CBT which helped, I have learnt techniques to use but I feel I cannot control my anxiety and it's got worse recently.

Some examples of things that I worry about (and some may think are silly)
My dd falling from a fair ground round and getting injured or worse!
Thinking I may die after using surgical spirit to clean brushes.
Heart racing I think I may die.
Unable to breathe properly, unable to get air into my lungs which can last days sometimes.
Worrying while driving on a duel carriage way I may crash and die.
Caring about what people think about me no matter where I am and who I'm with.
Relating conversations and thinking I may of said something stupid and so on and so on........

Can anyone relate?

Should my next step be medication?

Sounds like you are having panic attack's as well as anxiety.

It's a horrible thing to go through. Try the internet for advise on how to cope when having one then they will not be as frightening. Doctors appointment will help and they may put you on beta blockers to help in the short term

I am like this I suffer from OCD. Anxiety disorder and panic attack disorder. I have a psychiatrist he don't help just give me meds and monitors me. I have lived with it for years till I lost my daughter and got preg 3 months after and when she was one boom I was on a hospital ward thinking I was going to kill my kids, strangers may get to them. I never let my kids on scary rides I won't let my 12 year old out just now and then. It's hard I got through it with meditation to help relax me and I faced my fears I use to cry at clowns now I can tolerate them. I let my DD go on a trip this year. Everytime you feel you will die just laugh at yourself and change the way you think. I just call myself a dramatic d head now n it goes

Thanks for the reply. Sorry to hear what you've been through.
There is a lot of change going on in my life at the moment so I think it's made my anxiety worse-I really feel better with routine and knowing what's going to be happening.
I have anxiety with talking to the dr with how I'm feeling so I'm already worried about going and getting my feelings across properly, but I know it needs to be done.
I just can't keep living like this, I accidentally went slightly over the speed limit recently and worried for two weeks I was going to get a ticket-in my mind I catastrophically made myself think I was going 50 in a 40 when I wasn't!
I know it's not as bad as what some people struggle with but sometimes I just drive myself crazy with worry but I can't help doing it.

Yes, I can relate. I've had anxiety a few times in my life, panic disorder and agoraphobia. It's very hard. I am mostly recovered, now, although I think having recently started therapy to try to sort the last remnants of it has stirred things up again a bit.

Medication might help - I tend to be scared about that, too, and it's not a route I've been down myself, but lots of people do find it helps. May well be worth a try. Other things to try are exercise, diet, vitamins, getting outdoors, meditation/mindfulness, talking therapy (you might need more than a course of CBT).

Just wanted to add that when we are anxious the 'triggers' don't really matter in themselves - it's our anxious thoughts looking for something to be anxious about, if that makes sense? We'll latch onto whatever, but the problem is the anxiety itself, not the fairground rides/surgical spirit, etc.