Sorry if this is the wrong place to post.
I've been driving for around 15 years, the first ten years or so without a second thought.
When my daughter was about six months old I unexpectedly broke down at the side of the motorway and since then seemed to have a series of kings going wrong with the car to the point where I actively avoided driving and if I had to was constantly listening for every little noise. I was paranoid. At the slightest noise my heart would be pounding. Every time I got in I was hoping it would start.
It came to a head when DH realised I was avoiding driving and we decided to take the plunge and buy me a brand new car.
What do you know. It broke down. Major engine fault. All fixed now, but my anxiety is back big time.
It's like I'm waiting for something to go wrong, listening for every little noise.
Rationally, I know the worst that will happen is that I break down, the RAC will come and get me. Why can't I get this under control? I feel ridiculous. Even a trip to the supermarket and all I can think about the whole way round is 'I hope I can get home'. I pack spare coats and blankets in the car for DD and I just in case.
I need to get a grip but not sure how? No money for counselling or CBT. I feel like I just need to slap myself. I have a lovely, brand new car under warranty. I'm so fortunate. What can I do to get over this?