I’ve been diagnosed with depression in the past. Few years ago - not in this country. I met my husband and after having our child my mental health got very very bad. I’m in the state of pretending unfortunately. Made an excuse of work and book few nights in hotels over the last two years so I can just cry and sleep. My husband has no understanding of mental health (maybe it’s cultural - he is an African). Anytime I have an episode he gets “moody” doesn’t help, doesn’t hug me-nothing. I learnt to pretend I’m ok and life sometimes feel like I’m watching it like a movie instead of living it. At night I am trying to find reasons to stay alive. How to make my husband understand and be supportive? Sometimes I feel like he is a trigger or pushes me down when he could just hug me and I would be ok. I tried to talk to him a lot of times but he is still the same