Hi all, I was sexually assaulted about 3 years ago. Since then Ive had really bad control issues which I think might be related.
If my boyfriend does something to me sexually it freaks me out but I don’t mind doing stuff to him because I’m in control. If I’m in a car and someone else is driving I feel like Im going to have a panic attack. I went on a rollercoaster ride the other day and had a panic attack because in my head I thought they could make the ride go on forever if they wanted to and it was horrible.
I feel like it if I’m in a social setting and it would be awkward to get out of I feel panicky. Or I just went into the nail salon to get my nails done and I had to leave because I thought what if shes doing it and I cant leave. I know it sounds stupid but once I have that thought I feel so anxious and fight or flight mode is activated.
Anyone experienced this? How do I sort out my control issues?