Will my parenting be questioned?

[hereforyou]

I've been struggling lately with what I believe is a mental health issue. My husband left me with a 5 month old baby and has been all kinds of abusive, confusing and emotional since he left.
I feel low every day. I know I need some kind of help but I would never seek it for fear of doctors raising suspicion over my ability as a parent.
People in my life regularly comment on what a wonderful job I am doing with dd. She is happy, healthy and is not affected by my 'depression' at all and I don't think anyone would assume I am suffering because it's well hidden.

I guess my question is: can I seek help for my mental health without it causing repercussions from SS etc?

Definitely you can and it will look better if you do. Your show that you can see when there are issues and get support to help with them. Healthy happy parent equals healthy happy child.
If you leave getting help eventually it will catch up with you or you will realise that you have spent two years not feeling right.
You don't have to share all your dark thoughts or emotions straight away or at all if your worried, but definitely speak about low moods and loneliness etc.
Good luck,
I did it and it made me feel stronger

Thank you @hopefulandstrong and well done for getting yourself there help you needed!
I'm just so worried that people will judge me for admitting that I need some help and assume that I can't cope with the baby when in fact the relationship I have with her is the most positive thing in my life!

@hereforyou I have been in this position 7 years ago when my ex walked out on me and our baby son. Since then my mental health has been bad twice again and currently is now - I'm suffering badly with depression again now. Each time I have sought help and never had problems or my parenting called into question no. They will ask you if you feel suicidal. If they can see that your child is your protective factor then you have nothing to worry about. Please see your doctor and be honest and get some help. I promise it'll be ok x

A gp is very unlikely to make a referral to ss but it does sound like you need more support.

If for whatever reason ss does get involved it sounds like they will be questioning your ability to safeguard dd and questioning your ex’s parenting. It’s unlikely that they will have an issue about your day to day care of dd