Only feel peace when alone

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I get worse mentally when around family and DCs. Think is was PND to start with but my Dc are older now. They are fine, happy, no problems there but I still struggle with guilt. When they are out with DH or at school I feel so relieved like a weight lifts. I guess it is the responsibility.

i wondered if others feel the same, as I feel guilty for feeling like this. I do love them, and find them funny and enjoy being with them as well. It is more over ling time periods I struggle, such as the summer holidays.

If your children are fine and happy then you have nothing to feel guilty about. You love them and care for them!
Many mothers feel guilty but there's no perfect mother. It's absolutely normal to be relieved when you get your kids from under your feet and normal and ok to feel relieved to be on your own.
I always felt like you do. I used to tell my children to get out and play in the school holidays (in the days when children played out 😁 ) I couldn't wait to see the back of them!

Thanks! Yes they are older now and more independent so it is easier, I struggled with the early years but was always there for them...maybe time now to look ahead

I feel exactly the same as you.
I fond it so calming when DH & children are all out.
I hate the hustle and bustle of them all coming home.
They are all so needy towards me which is exhausting.
I'm looking forward to being older and them all being gone !!