Feeling so anxious...

[Floridagirl]

I'm on holiday with DH and DS and I feel so anxious 😥

I've struggled with anxiety since DS was born 10 years ago, and after trying various different solutions that didn't really work for me I eventually started taking 20mg citalopram daily around 18 months ago. This has been fantastic, really life changing, all going well.

However I am currently 4 days in to a 3 week holiday and my anxiety has come charging back in with a vengeance. I feel sick, upset stomach, feeling of dread, trouble sleeping. We've been going out during the day but then we get back to the place we are staying and I just don't want to go anywhere in the evening as I feel so anxious!

I don't want to spoil the holiday but honestly if someone offered me a plane ticket home I would go 😭 help me feel better please. I'm sitting here in most peoples dream holiday location crying at the minute in one of the spare bedrooms. Sorry, I know I'm not making much sense but I'm hoping it might make me feel a bit better to write it down.

I've also forgotten to bring any more birth control pills with me and I think this is worrying me. I've only got about 5 more days supply left, and I don't know where I could go to get any more. Not bothered about sex, happy to abstain but don't want to throw a load of hormone related stuff into the mix too. I've got enough citalopram, and I've also got a few 5 mg diazepam tablet's with me which I was prescribed for anxiety related sleeping problems but I don't really like taking them as I feel wiped out the next day. I took half a tablet night before last but still woke up at 3am and about every 40 minutes after that.
Maybe I should just take the bloody tablet. Not got enough to take one every night though.

Any suggestions would be very welcome! Or just a hello.

God that was long, well done if you actually read it 😳

Have a listen to this

I always get a bit homesick at night on holidays. I just miss my own bed.

Thank you JaneJeffer I'll have a look at that video.
And thank you for replying even if it did make me cry 😭 because someone took the time to reply.

Sending hugs, anxiety is horrible especially being so far from home. X

I hope you feel better tomorrow

Sending hugs OP. I also suffer with anxiety and always feel worse when we're away on holiday. It's hard and makes you feel frustrated that you 'should' be relaxed and enjoying yourself - be kind to yourself.

Thanks everyone. My lovely DH suggested we just went to grab takeaway and bring it back here to eat instead of eating out so that's what we did, and I'm feeling OK at the minute. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. I hate anxiety.

Hey @Floridagirl hope you're feeling better. Holidays can be overwhelming, it's so easy to overdo things, rather than remembering to take time to chill and relax. Take it easy and don't be too hard on yourself. If you need a chat, I have chronic insomnia, so am usually wake until 8-9am!

Thanks everyone. I took a diazepam last night so managed to get a full nights sleep, feel a bit groggy this morning. I feel a constant low level nausea at the moment which is not helping! Hopefully will feel better soon, just having a cup of coffee before a shower.

Sorry you're feeling this way. I'm also suffering badly at the moment after having so many years of feeling good. It's frustrating as I really thought I was in a good place.

The dare book really helped me in a lot of ways - and it was quite instantaneous although hard to listen to when feeling so anxious - I downloaded it from the audio books app on my iPhone. Might be worth a listen whilst you're there.

Try not to feel guilty about how you're feeling. You can't help it.

Xx

Thanks @Cinders29 I've just found that book on audible and I have a credit left so will download it when back on Wi-fi 👍
You're right, I do feel guilty. Holiday of a lifetime, I should be having fun 😳

I get more anxious when I'm going away too. Can you try grounding exercises, walking barefoot on grass, and hot milk? Hope you feel better soon.

How’s it going now ?