Lack of energy and feeling like I don't care

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I went to the doctors a couple of months ago as I was feeling like crap. When I eventually saw the MH nurse she told me I had a slight social anxiety and gave me a CD, said she was jealous of all the sleep I get and said she didn't need to see me again. For context, I more or less get 8hrs a night then have a 2/3hr nap during the day while child 2 (child 1 at school) is sleeping, though I'm still finding I'm utterly exhausted during the hols and child 1 sits on the bed and watches TV while I sleep.

I have absolutely no motivation, my house is a mess and I can walk passed it. I hate going out and stay in wherever possible. I start things and don't finish them because I get overwhelmed. I feel like a crap mum and just want to run away. My husband has said to me today that he doesn't believe that I love him because of the state the house is in.

I work part-time shift work. Child 1 is going back to school next week. Child 2 has been in and out of hospital for various operations and illnesses since January. I passed my driving test nearly 2 years ago but hate driving, get so stressed when I have to drive outwith normal routes.

I am fully prepared for you all to tell me to get a grip because that might be what I need. I just need some advice.

Sounds like you may be depressed?
Do you feel you are?

Do you think you have social anxiety
Or suffer anxiety?

Write yourself out a schedule for the week. Plan 2 small things to do each day - one for enjoyment (e.g. having a nice cup of tea from your favourite mug) and one for achievement (e.g. putting away the laundry, going for a brisk walk). Do them whether you feel like them or not. Feel proud of yourself when you have done them. The next week, add a few more things to your schedule.

Baby steps.

Good luck!

Your husband says that you he doesn't believe that you love him because of the state the house is in? What? Those two things are connected. Tell him you feel like shit and you can't muster the energy to care about yourself let alone the house, it has nothing to do with him whatsoever.
You don't need to get a grip, you're finding life hard and it's scary right now. That's ok, you've come to the right place, we all have periods like this, life is tough! Just give yourself space, find what you need to do to help yourself feel better and learn to be gentle with yourself. The reason that this is important is because you need to care for yourself before you can care for anyone else, and if you don't listen to this now, things could potentially get a lot worse. It's not selfish, it's basic self-care. Take care, be exceptionally kind to yourself, give yourself a break about how your house looks, find things to do that give you joy.

Sorry, I meant to say 'those two things aren't connected'.