Hi I have never posted on a forum before but feel very alone ATM so thought I'd give it a go. I have a 20 week old baby and an a 7 year old child. I have had a lot of stress in my life in the last few years which feels like 1 big thing after another, I won't go into to much detail or I will be here all night. My husband has a chronic illness and has been particularly poorly the last year. I have always suffered with mild anxiety but feel I have coped well with all the stress. In the first 7 weeks of my new baby being born my husband was in and our of hospital on overnight stays and it's continued to get worse. I felt ok the first month or so but have been feeling increasingly low as the times gone on. I feel like I have no interest in life or doing anything I normally do. Everything feels like a massive deal and I can't be bothered doing anything. I feel very alone and paranoid all the time. Some days I don't feel to bad but have a constant knot in my stomach. I love my children so much and don't feel anything negative towards them so keep thinking it can't be pnd. Sometimes I feel really guilty though and feel like I'm acting when I'm trying to make the baby laugh because really I just want to cry. I have been to the doctor but he was pretty useless and I have spoken to my husband once but felt like I just lost my temper and felt guilty for putting stress on him whilst he is sick. I feel like I could benefit from anti depressants but I'm really scared about going down that route. Does anyone have any advice or stories of their own thanks