Anxiety, feel like a terrible mum.

[Mummyrj18]

I have always loved being a mum, never had post natal depression. My son is 9 and my daughter is 4. Been struggling with anxious thoughts recently that I don’t feel the same about my girl anymore and I never wanted a daughter. It makes me feel sick thinking this, up till recently we were saw close. Now I just feel anxious when I look at her instead of that lovely loving feeling it’s unbearable. I’ve started sertraline which has calmed me down but scared I’ll never get out of this. Anyone got through something similar ?

Hi, I've never had those specific thoughts but I've had irrational ones which scared me and caused me distress even though I knew they weren't true. Cbt helped me and also reminding myself it was anxiety speaking and not me x good luck x

Thank you it’s exhausting me just feel on edge all the time. Constantly trying to rationalise my thoughts 😞 I know I’m not the only one but feel very alone 😞 x

Anxiety can really make you feel so lonely (even when you have support!). Have you considered counselling? It really helps, I promise!

Also, do try meditation (a lot of free apps & youtube). It's just a few minutes a day!

You poor thing that sounds like an awful feeling. I think you need to keep seeking professional help until you find something that helps. I hope things improve soon and that you have lots of real life support too.

I’m hoping to start counselling soon, have been doing mindfulness for a few weeks which I enjoy and think it will help long term. My daughter starts school soon don’t know it’s a subconscious reaction to change ? Just want to feel like a good mum again and enjoy life xx