Stuck in a rut

[booboo88]

Hi, first time posting here don’t really have any where else to turn to and after lots of googling I’ve ended up here.

I don’t know what I expect to gain from this or why I am even writing it just at a loss at the mo and can’t seem to get myself out of this horrible rut I’m stuck in.

So I have health conditions (lung problems) and I was in and out of hospital 2 yrs ago and almost died. Since then I have suffered with what I presume is anxiety. I can’t plan any thing, I very rarely leave the house, I’m paranoid, I can’t be bothered to do anything, I have no get up and go in me any more, when I do go to do any thing I am having constant battles in my head as to why I shouldn’t do them, I can’t be bothered with my friends at the mo, the list goes on and on. I feel like my life is on hold all because of my health. I was in critical care for 6 days 4 weeks ago I still haven’t recovered properly, I’m not sure if it’s the amount of drugs I am on that’s sending me crazy or if I am actually losing the plot.

How do I over come these crap feelings and get through this with out going completely insane 😢

Baby steps, one day at a time
Don’t let it go on to long before going to gp it sound like it’s also depression
Take care and be kind to yourself
Giving yourself little treats
Just as simple as maybe a bath with a really nice product in

Thanks for your reply, I don’t feel like I can go to my gp as I’m always there with my lungs and only go when I absolutely need to. I also don’t like talking and admitting how much I am really struggling I just can’t seem to find the words to say how I feel or how to even strike up the conversation. 😢

Write I down and pass the gp the letter. That way you don’t have to say it, lots off people do this.

If you don’t open up to someone you will stay as you are and just go round in circles
Doesn’t matter how many times you go to gp