Hello I am 40 years old have 2 beautiful boys 4 1/2 & 20 months old, married to a soldier. The issue I have is I cannot cope anymore with how my life is, hubby and I are currently going through marriage counseling and due to his anger he is about to start anger management.
I used to be a calm care free spirit massive social network yes I have depression but was managing ok.
Now I feel like I am constantly angry, stress, fed up pissed off with every and everything. I don't have family or friends around with me for support so just seem to boil over as my husband doesn't seem interested.
Its gotten to a point I snap at the stupidest things and get frustrated. Lately it's over my eldest, he is due to start school in September but for nearly 2 years with have been trying to toilet train him (no2's) NOTHING and I mean nothing works and it's now driving me insane as he won't be able to start school if we can't crack it soon.
I've gotten so angry and pissed off I even told him to get out of the house I opened the door and pushed him out, to which he fell over and hurt himself, I feel out of control and despise who I am.
I absolutely love and adore my children but I am soo scared of how I am dealing with this and don't no how to get help without them being taken away from me.