So I’ve been on and off medication since 14 years old and seen many therapists and psychiatrists and I came off of everything when I fell pregnant last year.
As I’m breastfeeding a baby who reacts badly to changes in breastmilk I’ve avoided going back on anything and have been seeing perinatal mental health.
I feel fine on my own and great by myself but anytime my partners around I am withdrawn. I feel like less of a woman, ugly, fat and overall just pathetic. None of this is his doing but I feel so insecure and like I’m not good enough, every other girl is better and he just shouldn’t be here.
I’ve only spoke to him about it once and all he really says is he can’t help how I feel and I guess he’s right, I don’t take it out on him or make it obvious so I don’t think he knows the extent it’s bothering me.
Anyway after talking to him and realising it’s on me to overcome I’m just actually not sure if I should continue the relationship at all.
I don’t think it’s fair on him and I also don’t want to feel awful during every minute we spend together... even nice moments in the couch.