Hey,
I’m new to mumsnet but I am familiar with how helpful and supportive people are on here. I’m currently dealing with anxiety (well I think). So when I get an episode I seem to get really anxious for example. When I go out with my friends I feel really rushed if they say they are ready and waiting I have to turn my phone off and get ready otherwise I will get stressed and on edge and want to blow. When I go out if I’m waiting for people. Get really anxious again be stressed and I feel it is really disrespectful and cannot let it go! It will be on my mind for ages. Also when it’s time to go and no one wants to go I start thinking that everyone is using me for a die and do not appreciate me (when I guess it isn’t the case). It’s very complicated but I’m feeling really stressed and I overthink everything so much for example
I usually meet my friend after his gym session and we go out, we can’t park for long in the bays so we ask he hurried up. Today I waited almost 45 minutes and when we finally meet him after driving round to different bays he’s strolling taking AGES! He’s slow getting to us, he’s slow sorting his bag out. He’s just so slow. We then get together and his friend says they made plans to chill (bare in mind we’ve just waited 45 minutes) I’m the ride so I say where are we going? And they’re all chilled like ‘I don’t know’ when your the ride I can’t be going off I don’t know coordinates so I took control and went to the park. We then walk around and I said I want to be home for this time my girl mate is like no stay out longer but the thing is they chill in my car!!!! They use it as a comfort space and I’m anxious because my petrol is getting low I was given petrol of one friend but the other just offers is says I’ll pitch in and never does! We finally leave anyway 2 hours after I wanted to go and I was more chilled but still so now I’m not meeting him after as I’m not being the easy ride for him whilst they chill and ruin my car. What do I do? I’m just overthinking so much is it a big deal? Is it just me? Someone help I don’t know if it is anxiety or just bad overthinking :(
Ps when we picked him up from his house the other day We said we will be there then he said come in 45 minutes we wasted 45 minutes. We then went round and guess what he was still keeping us waiting!!! I wouldn’t mind but to me it’s bad manners keeping your ride waiting isn’t it? Especially for that long