Just realised I'm not really all here. YOUR experiences please of derealisation!!!

[teaandbiscuits89]

I feel the following-
Disorientated, out of if, weird, dazzled by lights in supermarkets. Like vision is dulled but hearing is heightened. No fear or anxiety surrounding supermarkets.

On walks I feel like I'm in a bubble, like im floating through the walk and not really present. I have no fear of open spaces or forests or anything like that.

Sometimes when tskking to people I feel very aware of being inside my head and detached from my voice. Crazy as it sounds, I feel like I'm a little person living in someones head and can see out their eyes but I'm not them.

Even typing this I feel odd, not present and detached from myself.

I've realised this is derealisation and I'm freaking out as I feel it is happening more and more often. I'm worried I might disappear and feel like this all the time.

How do I get back??? What are your experiences?

I know I have anxiety (was on tablets but came off years ago) but no childhood trauma, although I would say I had a somewhat stressful childhood or was more perceptive to stress.

I feel like a dream and i dont like it now that I've realised it's not tiredness or a daydream and is happening more and more.

Anybody??

Sorry to hear you are going through it @teaandbiscuits89.

Does it feel like an overload of the senses? Weird deja vu experiences with adrenaline lurching stomach? Sleeping lots? A feeling of doom?

I had this and after seeing my GP and having a lot of tests have been diagnosed with temporal lobe epilepsy.....

Might be completely different but worth looking into?

Feeling woolly headed like you can't join your thoughts up (feels like being pissed but not woozy?) Not quite present?

Sounds quite a lot like how I feel when having a particularly bad period with anxiety.... constant monologue in my head.... drifting in and out of conversations with people, losing concentration /zoning out....

@f83mx
Absence seizures?

@normallyalurker ... just had a google! Don’t think so, more distracted by anxious thoughts/monologue I think meaning unable to fully concentrate on an actual convo properly ....

@f83mx

A busy overloaded head.... 😞

OMG the being a little person trapped inside someone’s head describes what I feel sometimes so well. Existence is so odd and I often can’t get my head around it and yes I feel like the floating bubble too.
I always put it down to my anxiety. I take fluoxetine and I’m generally feeling better but I still get freaked out by my very existence sometimes.

I’m sorry to hear this. Do you think you might be depressed?

I listened someone talking on the radio the other day about Depersonalisation Disorder. It sounds similar to what you're experiencing.
I often feel 'not really here' at the moment but I've put it down to being extremely sleep deprived (due to non-sleeping 1yo!).

Meant to say 2yo! See! Can't even type properly

www.anxietyuk.org.uk/anxiety-type/depersonalisation/

Hi OP,
I totally get what you mean. I experience dissociation and derealisation. I sometimes feel like I am floating about it in the cotton wool and detached from the world.

I sometimes have little waves of feeling like this. My mum suffered from DPD for years, any doctor she had seen could not diagnose it so it was seen as a general anxiety and she ended up bed ridden for long periods of time. It did go away for her though, and she has educated herself to know when she feels like this exactly what it is and that itself is what helps her escape from it. I'm sorry if that doesn't make much sense.
I think lots of people often feel detached from their own bodies in this way but don't actually know what is wrong and it usually passes quickly. I do know that cannabis can be a trigger for some people.
There is a film called Numb, which is about the condition, it's not fantastic but maybe worth a watch. Also, I think something that truly helped my mum was reading a book called Feeling Unreal.
I hope you can make some sense of your condition and wish you the best of luck on your recovery

Please talk to a GP, this could be something physical as much as mental. Low levels of certain vitamins and iron and stuff can really mess you up.

Short-term, try some grounding techniques - 5 things you can see, touch, etc.