That's it really. Just so tired and fed up. I feel like the lights have gone out. Every morning I wake up and just feel doom and dread that I've got to get through another day. I hate living where we do but the chance to move has just fallen through and I'm too knackered to think about
It all now and my husband is so sick of talking about it. I feel completely trapped here in the relentless drudge of motherhood. I miss London and my old life terribly. Some days are better than others and I hold onto those moments. I try and practice gratitude but I spend a lot of time thinking is this it? I have started seeing a counsellor but unsure if it's helping. I probably need to change my mindset but ultimately the problem I think lies with where I'm loving and my situation looking after my two young children. I don't really want any answers. Just wanted to get this down somewhere. I really feel like I've hit rock bottom today.