Ok this is me these days....
- drifting, I start something (a job, house project, etc) then quickly lose interest and want to do something else entirely
- guilty, I'm not doing my job well nor being a particularly present parent. It's not that I can't do my job, but I can't muster the enthusiasm. I waste time, procrastinating
- imposter, I can make out like I'm busy, like I know what I'm doing, that I'm successful. But then I feel crippled by how little I actually am doing. I spend too much time planning pet projects and browsing the web.
- out of my depth, constantly at work I feel like I've had two rounds of maternity leave and all of a sudden there's a whole new sector jargon that I don't understand and I don't want to learn.
- I feel like I need a brand new start. I was recently given one but already I'm feeling all of the above feelings towards it.
I have two young DC, a DH who works overseas. It's hard. I had s breakdown 9 months ago which I'd say I'm coming out of, I've gone back to work, but I feel like I'm only operating at half capacity.
Does this make sense to anyone? I don't feel depressed, just, urgh.