Hi everyone,
I’ve suffered anxiety and panic attacks for the last 12 years following a really bad trip. I feel like I suffered some kind of PTSD from it , as I used to get so panicked that the sensation was happening again, I had a few bad years of anxiety and panic attacks and went on to sertraline.
Fast forward a few years and I had a lot of problems when pregnant with ds - he has multiple disabilities that were diagnosed during pregnancy. I had EMDR plus counselling and since ( around 4 years ) I’ve been great, best I’ve ever felt.
Last year, he died following a seizure and since I have been extremely worried and stressed , I also run two businesses as well as all the normal day to day, but although I felt sick with worry all the time, I wasn’t slipping back into anxiety and felt ok on the whole.
I started to feel better about my son and was starting to feel calmer and then all of a sudden out of nowhere I had a huge panic when out with a friend and my youngest.
Since, I’ve had constant anxiety and really bad panic attacks. Its got so bad I feel physically unable to look after my children. Constantly in a state of detachment and panic. Im really struggling to cope. I feel like I’m on the verge of having a breakdown.
I went to see a counsellor last night but had to leave to having a huge panic attack, she started to perform BWRT on me and it just freaked me out and I felt like I was on the verge of that bad trip again.
I’m really at a loss as to what to do... I need to do something soon as holidays are coming up and I need to be with it for my son for when he seizes but I’m just feeling so exhausted and like I’ve no energy to fight this all over again.