Extreme irritability?

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Firstly, thanks for reading my thread

I have been experiencing problems with my mood for a long time, for the past year though I have started to have intense feelings of rage!

I also get intense feelings of sadness and hopelessness too, but this seems more of a concern! I often feel like I’m in a dream or when I move from one place/activity I suddenly feel much more alert, like I’ve “woken up”.

It might be the weekend and I’m getting frustrated trying to decide which hobby or relaxation I want to do (yes really lol).
Maybe I’m doing some knitting and it is complicated.
Maybe my husband talks to me while I’m watching tv.
Maybe there are lots of different noises around or one particularly loud one.

I get this internal sense of absolute fury and it lasts a few seconds to a few minutes. It is like a physical sensation that speeds through my whole body. (Or I might feel completely overwhelmed by deep sadness and despair).

I don’t tend to show it. As in I will ask my husband to turn the TV down or stop whistling for a minute while I count stitches! But that’s all.

I have had lots of CBT for attachment/abandonment issues, perfectionism and anxiety.
I have been on various meds before but found they didn’t do anything for me.
My mum has BP and Asperger’s.

Is this what lots of people get and it’s just my perfectionism making a big deal of it? Or is there maybe something greater going on?

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2 other possibilities (presuming that you're female)

Menopause?. My noise & mood sensitivity became much worse during that

Get your vitamin B12, folate, D etc checked by your GP, deficiencies in all can affect mood. B12 deficiency/pernicious anaemia is often hereditary & can be misdiagnosed as BPD, ASD etc, especially relevant if these are newer problems

Thanks @RockinHippy

I’m 33 but have an oestrogen imbalance (atypical anovulatory PCOS). Could be that you’re onto something tho, a colleague suggested that it sounded like her experience during menopause today.

I always have low vit D but stopped taking my supplements in April thinking summer is here so why would I need to
Other stuff has all been checked for other reasons and is fine.

Thanks for your suggestions x

CBT gives you strategies for coping with feelings but it doesn’t address the underlying issues. Do you find it easy to experience emotions or is it challenging for you? I’d suggest you might need to think again about some further therapeutic input. I’m sorry to hear you’re finding things difficult, it sounds very unsettling.

That makes sense. Maybe a chat with your GP about the hormones is in order to see if they can test fir changes & help further

Unfortunately you can't stop vitamin D, there's not enough sun in the UK in general for healthy D levels & there are some genetic mutations that mean you need more than normal & be symptomatic even when in range.

Is it the prescription Vitamin D your on?? If so I can say from experience, it's pretty rubbish as its synthetic & your body needs natural D3, my GP agreed too, but it's all she could prescribe.

Have a look at the VitaminD Council website for information, but buy high dose D3 from Amazon etc as it's cheaper

B12 might still still be worth thinking about too as the NHS tests are unreliable. If you can afford it, you can have private B12 injections in the beauty depts of the likes of House of Fraser. These will work fir all, where as pills don't always help, just put blood results up