Going under again

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My personal circumstances are not great and haven't been for a while. I'm a single mum. The mothering bit is fine. My problems are mainly financial. I had a good job but haven't been in a proper job for some time. I have my head in the sand about everything.

I've been on ADs for 7 months or so. I think they have made me less stressed about my issues to the point I don't care. They have not increased my motivation to do anything about them.

I have put on weight (probably related to ADs) and I am not even doing the most basic things to keep my house clean and tidy. DC fed, well looked after and happy but living in a mess I can't get on top of.

I'm starting to feel myself going further downhill. I don't want to up my dosage because of side effects. I'm supposed to be getting CBT but have been waiting months to hear anything.

No one knows I'm on medication. Very few people know my personal circumstances. I put on a very good performance in front of people. Every day I just want to get into bed and forget about it all.

I don't know why I'm positing really.

I would chase the CBT referral, if you are downward sliding you may become higher priority. You could contact Step Change the debt charity, if problems are debt, or Citizens Advice, to help go through the financial problems. This booklet is helpful: www.moneysavingexpert.com/credit-cards/mental-health-guide/. I was exactly in your position, I needed support to get the motivation to do anything after being on ads for five months.

I found CBT helpful because I set a few simple goals (exercise three times a week etc.). I could do it again to add more (budget money etc.).

ps well done for holding together

Thanks for the response. I am struggling and have retreated to my bedroom, leaving DC downstairs (they are old enough to be perfectly safe).

My issue isn't debt so much as lack of income.

I've already chased up the CBT. I hope to hear soon.