Is anyone there?

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I really need someone to talk to. Honestly, about anything. I feel like I'm going to break down in tears constantly and I'm trying desperately to be normal for my toddler.

well done for reaching out. I'm not a counsellor, but i can talk...what have you been doing today? Is your toddler with you now?

Thanks. It's ok, to be honest just to talk to anyone right now about nothing in particular would be lovely. I went for a coffee this morning and to do some shopping for bits in the supermarket but dd was not having it and screeched the entire way around and didn't want to sit in the trolley nor did she want to walk or be carried. I tried to give her snacks and my phone to just get things done but she didn't want to. She's also refused a nap despite being tired. Husband is away tonight so I'm praying she goes down ok so I can just cry in front of the tv!

Hello. Not about me but also having a rough time. I have a 5 month old and partner has been working away for 6 weeks so regularly try not to cry with sleep deprivation and general feeling down.
Well done for getting out no matter how hard it was. Do you have anything nice you can plan for yourself later to look forward to once toddler is asleep? Face mask or takeout or something?

I started online shopping for the sole reason I couldn't face toddler meltdowns in the supermarket, its so draining! She will probably sleep really well tonight. Can you watch something uplifting on TV, a comedy or something so compelling it will take your mind off how you are feeling for a hour or two.
I've just finished Killing Eve its brilliant, if you haven't seen it already.
Can you make the most of your husband being away tonight
and have a candlelit bath, chocolates, wine whatever your go to treat is?

@TinyMarie oh bless you. Thank you for replying. I remember the sleep deprivation well. I was an absolute shell when dd was tiny. I don't know how I survived. My dh wasn't working away but he wasn't helpful at all. He avoided me at all costs and I nearly died with dealing with it all. I had horrendous pnd. I will probably watch some tv. I don't know what though. I'm on a diet at the moment because I'm horrendously overweight so no chocolate or anything and I don't really drink!

@Chocrock oh we do online shopping but the bread went mouldy really quickly so I had to get more and I forgot toothpaste. I thought I'd treat dd to a little cupcake as well. I find the ungrateful ness and being unappreciated really hard. I've watched all of killing eve I'm afraid! I wish there was more! I loved it. I can't really have a bath after dd is in bed because it's right next to her bedroom so I'd worry it would wake her up.
Things are shit with h at the moment so I'm constantly feeling anxious and sad.

sounds like you are really having one of those days when nothing goes your way! can you sit outside in the last of the sunshine with a cup of tea tonight? Is there anyone you can invite over for a chat rather than be alone?
I would definitely try to find time to pamper yourself as Tinymarie suggests.

I've got nobody I'm afraid :( I can definitely sit in the garden with a tea

I do feel massively lonely especially when things aren't so great with h.

I am separated and spend a lot of time alone especially as DS is older. I have lots of friend but only socialise once or twice a week. I enjoy listening to podcasts (mainly true crime) and reading. I never feel lonely now, but I do recall being married and feeling very lonely indeed. I feel for you.