It's getting ridiculous, this is not what I imagined panic/anxiety to be like.. now I'm looking back at other times in my life and realising maybe that's what it was.
First time a few months ago literally thought I was dying, whole body shaking uncontrollably, couldn't breathe, heart beating like crazy, sweating.
Now it's becoming very regular. Sometimes it becomes an association I think, like getting on the bus now, sitting in presentations for some reason it doesn't make sense.
Tonight it's been flashing in my eyes lost half my vision, I've had this before and presumed linked to epilepsy. But I went outside and calmed myself down, now I think it's another anxiety symptom, have been anxious and stressed all day.
I just don't need this. It comes out of nowhere. It's the physical symptoms I just don't need. I've lived with feeling pretty much constantly anxious all my life but this is new.
Any stories of hope? I can feel any confidence I had ebbing away.