I know this is just a low spell but I'm really struggling. Have become so good at ploughing onwards, putting a brave face on but I'm home alone until 7:30pm and having a temporary wallow.
I got divorced 2 years ago and although I don't wwant him back I'm still utterly heartbroken about what it has done to our DDs (9&7). And in hindsight I don't know how I didn't see what my ex was like and I'm so sad that I didn't see what apparently, many others could (narcissist and serial cheater). I'm humiliated and heartbroken that I let myself down like that.
We're still in the family home though it's up for sale. I want to move as it's a horrible limbo living in the house we renovated together... house of failed dreams but it's also a huge wrench. This is all my girls have ever known and they love it. My youngest daughter doesn't want to move and still struggles so much with life post-divorce. It came as a total shock to them as we never argued. We will have to move out of the area as I'm priced out as a single person. Finances are all agreed, I just want to move on but I'm terrrified. Am probably depressed.
I feel so empty trying to stay positive for my girls and doing everything myself. I'm tired.
I'm on the phone at the mo negotiating an offer someone's made on our home. I feel sick but I know it's ultimately what I want and need.