I am too scared to talk to the doctor.

[IcingOnTheCake]

I've been to the doctor for different things over the last few months but when she say's 'is there anything else' i just shyly say no and leave.

I know what would happen, i would start talking but then i would end up drivulising (bad spelling sorry) things and making out like they are not a big deal.

I have had depression on and off over the last 5 yrs and i have many highs and lows but lately it just all seems to be lows and i can't seem to snap out of it. It's really affecting my relationship and my dd is driving me crazy out of no fault of her own.

Help.

IcingOnTheCake

It is hard to make yourself vulnerble this way, but it will pay off. You can even write what you want to tell the doc down. Once you start being honest with her, I imagine the words will just flow. It shows true strength in your character to take control of your depression.

Oh I feel for you, I had a slight bout of depression a while ago and walking in to the doctors surgery was just awful, I wanted to turn and run.

But, this is what gp's are there for, they will be able to help you and you will feel so much better for doing it. I agree that writing it down is an excellent idea, you can just hand it over and sit and cry if thats whats needed and then you have got over the first hurdle.

good luck, you know what you need to do.

IOTC - I know jsut how you feel. I was diagnosed with manic depression when i was about 15 and after a few months of taking anti depressents i decided i could cope without them and stopped taking them, and since then i ha ve been off and on anti d's for a couple of months at a time each time deciding that i wasn't going to live my life relying on medication.

Then 2 weeks ago i got that low i was shouting at my kids and really making dp misrable it was then that i decided things had to stop, i ended up crying all over my g.p but he was so kind and understanding he made me realise depression is the same as any illness and it needs to be treated.

Please go you will fell a little better just for taking that first step to getting help.