Hi. I’m sorry if this is not allowed on here but I’m struggling a bit at the moment and I don’t know whether I’m just being ridiculous or if I’m justified for feeling how I do.
The last year has been really hard. Back in April last year, my partner cheated on me. We have worked things through and are still together but I still struggle with it sometimes. Two weeks later, my best friend of 20+ years moved away from our home town, following a marriage breakdown (amicable). She’s not gone that far (40 mins) but she has since got a new partner and a new life and it can be more than 3 weeks at a time between us speaking.
Two months after that, my 40 year old sister got diagnosed with Stage 3 breast cancer. After a course of intensive chemotherapy, operation and radiotherapy, she is now recovering.
A few months later, myself and my partner got given notice to quit on our flat and had to move home.
All was ok for a few months but things between myself and my partner are not great at the moment- just a bad patch, I think. But when things aren’t right, I immediately go into panic mode and think there will be infidelity again.
Then, just recently, my father got diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. At first, I felt like I took the news in my stride but just recently, I’ve found myself being very teary and ready to cry at the drop of a hat- particularly when I think about my dad and his illness and what the future holds.
I have a few concerns of my own with my health- I’ve been having occasional palpitations and shortness of breath and tingling hands/fingers.
I just feel a bit overwhelmed and I don’t know whether I’m just being stupid and I should just get on with things (as there are people far worse off) or if I’m justified feeling as I do.
Sorry for rambling.