I hate my life

[Lily715]

I hate my job, I'm so unhappy all of the time. Rely on antidepressants to get me through the day which have made me numb and I don't really know who I am without them. I feel like I just exist in life, I don't live life. I don't really care about anything. I'd love to just vanish, the only thing stopping me is that it would upset my dad. Other than that I really have no reason to stick around. I hate my life and everything about it.

Hi OP, just wanted to let you know you’re not alone

I’m happy to listen if you want to talk it through. What is it about your job you hate so much?

I know the feeling all too well of having nothing to stick around for, it’s so hard when you feel so utterly lonely! Do you have a partner? (I don’t and I know how tough it gets!)

Hey, I thought I'd reply cus I'm currently feeling shit about being ignored all the time. I posted a poem in here which is empty and I swear it's always me 😅

Anyway, I'm sorry you're struggling, I'm not sure how much my words can help.. I want to tell you that you have reason, I know it's not easy with money (I never have any) but I do believe no job is worth your Health, get out if you can.. but also know what it's like when you feel trapped because how else will you pay for things?
It's a tough one but maybe you could look for something else..
Can you maybe change your Meds?
Could your doctor refer you to some more support?
What about something little that you enjoy, like reading or baking or painting, can you join a book club or do something little that's just for you to bring you a little smile each week.
I wish I could help more, I can say the right things because I know the skills, but honestly I'm in the same position of not wanting to be here every day, it's so.. so hard!
Sending love and strength for you anyway

I’ve been here before and honestly the only thing you can do is fight...

I know is so hard when you have no more fight in you but you got to fight for the life you want.

Everything you need is inside you, I promise! You just have to start doing some soul searching.. find out what is is that caused a lot of this.. go way back and find it and then once you start dealing with that..

Somethings that I have done that have helped, although I get my bad days believe me, where I don’t wanna be here anymore is..

I read a lot of self help books
I started telling myself everything I Was proud of myself for even though I didn’t want to or believe it
I started eating better and exercising not drastically but just enough to count to make me feel better
I started being honest with myself of where I messed up, where I should of made better decisions not to put myself down but to know where to never make those mistakes again
I just took one day at a time.

Some days it’s so hard to pretend and especially when you feel your life is amounts to nothing but just everyday try make it better, because it’s worth living you just got to get the courage to come out of this hole xx