Need help please

[AlwaysSunshine81]

I’m in a bit of a mess, single mum to 3 girls aged 16, 12 and 4. 16yr old has self harmed but think we are on top of that now. The older 2s dad live in America so they don’t see him apart from summer holidays. My youngest goes to her dads every other weekend. It’s been a tough breakup and he is loving with another woman and has a 6 month old baby and we’ve been split nearly 2 years. My girls are brilliant but the younger 2 wins each other up which is stressful.
I am on 150g sertrine since jan when found out ex GF to was 39 weeks pregnant and the whole time we had been apart he’d begged me to come back. That was very difficult.
I’m a bit up and down. One minute I’m fine and the next I’m not. I’m going through a down stage at the moment and struggling, the other night thinking I just want to run away.
I don’t want to be at work, work 27 hours a week but would never give it up cos work keeps me motivated as does going to gym and running.
I am drinking nearly every night and I hate doing it but feel like it’s all I have to look forward to. Sometimes I wonder if I have bipolar. I haven’t really spoken to anyone about this x

Why not try and do an evening hobby a couple
Of times a week once the 4 yo in bed? Like a Zumba class or something fun? Surely your 16 yo would be able to babysit and it will avoid you drinking and get some endophins in your system

Thanks for your message. I am doing 2 runs a week and 2 body pump classes but still manage to drink wine after

Hey hun,

My heart goes out to you..

It’s so hard feeling like this expecially when your responsible for children. I’ve felt like this myself so many times.

Have you tried reading self help books, about loving yourself and really just working on you inside and out?

Or watching YouTube videos on this kind of stuff?

May Sounds abit odd, but this is what I did to help when I was in such a low place.. and it honestly helped

Continue on with the exercising it’s always good to have a outlet that is physical.. and just take one day at a time.

Your human and your just trying to deal with stuff there’s no right or wrong only how you feel...
So just take one day at a time and try again tomorrow!

I hope soon enough you can feel like you again x

Hi
Are there any nice safe areas you can go for a good walk ? Or join a walking club ?
I find walking does me wonders when I feel I’m getting a bit low ( of course talk to your doc if you feel really bad ) ... a good walk at the seaside is amazing .... anywhere outside ( as long as you safe and daytime ) .... I’m evangelical about it .. it clears my head .. and keeps me on an even keel ... even and it think “ cant be asked “ I push myself for 15 mins and if I feel like more steps( (which 9 times out of 10 I do ) and I have time , I just keep strolling ;9)
I hope you are ok and that any advice on here can help 👍