Lonely and lost in life.

[Ploddingonby]

Hello 👋
I’m not sure what I hope for by creating this post but maybe just someone who understands.
I feel like the most lonely, most worthless, waste of space, uninteresting, unvaluable, weirdest, unwanted person in the world.
I try so hard to help others and to be a person that is the opposite of the things I feel but I just feel myself sinking into a deeper hole at times.
I’m here because I’m a mum. I truly believe that. Bringing up my children is the only thing that I feel I’ve done well in this world. Not perfectly (nobodies perfect hey!) but well. They’re great kids and I’m very lucky. But aside from that I feel like I’m a failure of a human and at times I’m even starting to question whether they’d actually be better off without me too.
I have no parents in my life, I never have done really. My mum has been absent most of my life and has severe learning disabilities so I understand, my dad was abusive and the only other older family members I ever had were my nana who was an alcoholic and my aunty who didn’t like me and made that very clear verbally and eventually physically.
I have a younger brother who I had live with me for years and has now gone on to live his life with his partner. Great job, allot of travelling ect. I am so happy for him and love him so very much but even to him I feel like me and my children are a burden.
I have a couple of friends but I feel like again we’re just a burden to them as I feel with most people around us.
I have a partner of a few years but we’ve been unstable in the most stable of ways if

I feel the same. I have a partner and two kids. We haven't had sex in about a year I'm not even 30 yet. I feel like the biggest saddo in the world

Lux you should start a new thread this one is 2 years old

Lux has reactivated this thread but I would be interested to hear how everyone is getting on.

I find this thread very relatable and it resonates with me greatly.

I think that’s all I want in life, just deep connections where I feel loved, accepted and wanted without conditions or expectations.

This applies to me too. I have been left with no extended family (toxic and abusive) and my relationship with my husband is a complete and utter mess but feel I don't want to leave largely because I have no-one else (no family etc).

I am depressed now. It took a while to work it out. I've just requested some anti-depressants and I'm on a waiting list to be seen for therapy. I feel horribly, horribly lonely and crave connection. I have dc this keeps me getting up in the morning but my self worth is through the floor. I think being knee deep in the perimenopause has been the final icing on the cake. Anxiety thrown in, I feel like I've got the works!