Help

[steakandcakes]

I think I'm possibly bipolar...

I Suffer from a conduct disorder,but recently my thighs and lows have been extreme,I mean borline maniac I can actually scare myself,and then break down into tears for weeks.

I even painted my bedroom black one morning in a state....and regretted it 6 weeks after hiding in it,then painted it pink...WTF

How long did it take to get answers and help? I'm going doctors first thing in the morning.

I would never hurt myself (even though I do get impulse thoughts I know I would never act) and I know I would never hurt my child.

Then when I'm high I'm reckless with money,and go wild but in a different way

OP, I'm no expert but a family member has been through something similar and I didn't want to read and run. It's great that you're seeking help, but I think treatment is definitely a journey, not a quick fix. You may have to experiment with various treatments before finding something effective for you. Try and keep a log of the behaviours that you feel are concerning or extreme - it will help speed up a diagnosis. I hope you have support around you can trust. Very best of luck to you and I hope your doctor is supportive!

Thank you for the reply.
I see somebody today which they agree it sounds like I am. I have a emergency referral and should have some answers by the morning.

Onwards and upwards.

I hope it went well. Wishing you the very best of luck, resilience and balance

How are you doing, OP?